Apologies for this being long-winded.27 years ago I met this girl, Viet, came with her family to this country just two days before the fall of Saigon. She was just starting college, I had just graduated a few months earlier. We fell in love and half a year later we were having sex. It was great. Four years later we got married. We had children, well spaced, with plenty of time before the first child to go on romantic vacations. I was happy but as the years passed she was increasingly unhappy. I think it is safe to say that interracial marriages are hard, couple that with the fact that she was born in another country and - well I knew going in that it was a serious challenge.
Nevertheless, two years ago when I found out that she was having an "emotional affair" with another Viet man I was shocked and devastated. I had been completely faithful to her all the years we were together, more than a quarter of a century during which I had never even hugged a woman other than relatives. I had looked at enough pictures of naked women in magazines and later the internet so I can hardly claim to be pure, but my thoughts had never come close to deeds. I begged her to "work on our marriage" and she rejected this idea. For more than a year I tried to convince her to return to me emotionally, to no avail.
At first she was guilty enough to continue to let me make love to her and for a few months it was very good sex indeed but as time passed she realized that she didn't want or need to go through the motions of pretending that we were still a couple and so sex became less frequent and less of an emotionally connecting activity until finally, it was like fucking a dead fish. So I moved out of her room. To outward appearances we are still a couple but all we had in common was our children and our house.
Three months ago my wife told me she was filing for divorce and so, feeling miserable, I went looking for female companionship. I discovered this site and I started seeing some of the K-girls who advertise here. I must say that spending an hour with these girls is really, really pleasurable. They remind me of the girl I met and fell in love with 25 years ago, prettier but with poorer English.
My quandary is this: are these K-girls bad for me psychologically? Am I going to find that they are a habit which I can't kick? Will I be unable to connect with real women in the future? I mean, what could be easier, you call one up, you leave 200 dollars on a table, and just like that she is naked and willing to have sex. And what downsides? No police, no (visible) pimps, nice well-appointed rooms, and such soft and beautiful woman to make love to. I know one comment compared seeing the women on this site to taking drugs, does anyone else think so?
My bottom line: this is the most fun I've had in years and its a bit scary. I feel like a child in a candy store with lots of money to spend.